Venting

I'm writing this time to vent and bitch so I can get it all out my system.  My life isn't bad at all, frankly i'm pretty happy go lucky most of the time.  Today on the other hand is not one of those days where I am all peachy and giggly. I'm rather irritated and most of what is causing this irritation is my fault. I have to start remembering to spread my time out a little more and give myself time before making any promises to do something.

I'm in Little Rock for the week and really don't want to be, however, I made a promise to someone that I would come visit again, just didn't realize it would be so soon. I'm not one to break a promise so I honored my word and here I sit. I know everything will be fine and maybe I needed to leave my wonderful Wykd family....My MamaKat and Master Wolf...I don't say that as a negative because I would much rather be back in Bartlett making sure they are taken care of because they both have been sick and now Master Wolf is curled up under blankets miserable, MamaKat is fighting stress and a relapse and  now she has to go home and take care of  Sir when she should be resting next to him.  I know I won't be able to  be there all the time but damnit I want to be.  They both need some TLC.  Even though we weren't on each others nerves I figured a few days apart would do us some good so that we don't take a chance of driving one another nuts. That's the only reason I kept my promise to my Aunt, however, had I known what I know now I would not have left.

With all that being said I am utterly worn out and very very tired.  Everything is bothering me today and I got my feelings hurt because i'm being a moody bitch due to lack of sleep and everything falling apart at once. I literally worked my hiney off spring cleaning for two days so the house would stay clean during my abscence and no one would really have to do much. My kid was an ass on the phone today,  took me forever to actually figure out that I needed to publish my blogs (journal) so that they can be read by MasterWolf and MamaKat which stressed me out, then I was trying to speak with Master on one of the gmail im's because my phone only has like 5 text messages left until the 1st and he got sick and asked me not to message him there because it was too noisey which irritated me even more because I can't send any text to check on him and I don't want to call and chance waking him up if he's resting. It's like i'm cursed, someone put a spell on me.  None of this is anyone's fault, it just has me down today and a little depressed.  A good nights sleep will do me justice and i'll be in a much better mood tomorrow.


I know i'm suppose to write in my journal when I first met James and Kat plus all the things in between now and then. I will and and i'll make sure that the correct time span corresponds with my journal. Right now i'm just writing down the present getting a few things off my chest, that's what a journal is for plus it is a way of communication between Master, Mistress and myself. It also will help them get to know me better in so many ways. 




Now that I vented and got it out of my system and I have a tasty chocolate homemade milk shake in my hand, I am feeling better.  Here in about an hour and a half i'm going to start listening to the book that Master so kindly downloaded for me surprising the dickens out of me and MamaKat loaned me her laptop so I could start this journal and listen the book. I swear, I have the most wonderful Master and Mistress , so kind and loving......I truly have been blessed........

submina....

Riding Solo

This is the first time I have gone out basically alone since being placed under consideration by Kat and James. I was told to to email details of my night to my Master and Mistress so I did and figured that would be my first blog as well. 

As always when with Barb we are always running late, however, we did make it to impact Saturday night just in time for the fire cupping demo. We got settled in and watched the show. It was very interesting and caught my attention.  I specifically spoke with Master Paul early in the day to make sure that He was going to be at impact because without my Master or my Mistress being there  he is the only person I would consider bottoming to.  I made sure to get permission but I really would have rather played with my MamaKat or my Sir Wolf.  There will always be another time so I am content with that, besides Master did need to go see His mom and so did Mistress. Didn't hurt for them to actually do something together without someone tagging along either. 

Okay so we had a demonstration of fire flogging and fire cupping. I found both to look really cool and interesting. Not only did we get a close up view of the demonstrations, we also got to try one of the two out and Master Paul volunteered me for the fire cupping.  For safety precautions I had to strip down fully naked.  I really don't like being naked in front of a lot of people. I know we are all kinky and seen naked people before , however, I still have issues with a certain part of my body. I'm not skinny by any means and frankly could stand to lose some weight. The issue is with my stomach. It looks horrible due to past surgeries and the only way to fix it is another surgery. Well that isn't going to happen anytime soon so I sucked it up, put on my big girl panties and stripped.  It was well worth the embarrassment of having to show my squishy tummy.  Fire cupping is a bottoms dream!!  First you get oil rubbed on you, I was on my tummy so my back got it. Then the top (Dom) gets his tools out and dips it in some sort of alcohol, lights the end then rubs across your back almost touching it,  free hand following to put out any flames on the body. So basically it's like a hot oil massage. I was in pure heaven for about twenty minutes. I could have laid there for hours.

Now for the second part of my night after mingling a bit and settling down from the cupping , I topped Clay(PA901). He hasn't bottomed in quite sometime and I haven't topped so we helped one another out.  Clay is so much fun to scene with because if you can dish it out, that man can take it.  I like how I am challenged when striking  him with a flogger or a cane. You can hit him in the same spot over and over without him making a sound or even moving. He is most definitely a hard bottom. So what I find myself doing is finding ways to keep him guessing,  whacking him when he least expects it, hitting him with the just the right amount of force tapping the sweet spot that makes him curse or make some kind of sound, lol.  I know that's probably not right, however, it's not wrong either and making him squeak is a challenge. I beat the challenge. He ended up cursing and I ended up giggling at the fact he made noise.  Floggers, paddles, and canes OH MY!!!

Clay then ofcourse played with another after we were finished and rested up.  That man has learned a lot the past few months and is very good at switching. I'm proud of him because I'd like to think that I was a part of the learning and teaching process with him along with several other friends. It's great to help someone out that's really eager to learn and what's even better is that we all walked away with bit more knowledge in certain areas within this lifestyle and we learned from one another , making a lasting impression on each other and becoming the best of friends.

Master Paul , my dear friend Master Paul that loves boobies, especially mine, made a toy sort of a mini dragon tail or tongue just for my boobies. The reason He made this little toy is because I literally get my "ass" beat during most of my scenes( and yes I love it) however, people tend to forget I love breast play too and he caught me whining about it a bit a few weeks ago. Not that I was upset or anything, however, my poor poor tits were feeling a tad bit neglected. Thanks to the new toy, that has a really nice sting to it, my tits are neglected no more.  I get to name this toy, but i'm thinking it needs to be tested again before I pick one out *smiles*

Tamara was at impact with Steve and I was shockingly surprised  and a little impressed with her behavior. She didn't whine, bitch, complain, or try to boss me around for the first time since I don't know when. She was herself, the fun loving, out going, and silly woman that I first met months ago.   I guess with me avoiding her for a bit, standing my ground instead of feeling obligated or just plain sorry for her, did some justice. I refused to be the punching bag for her. Tamara is a good person deep down, I just think sometimes she feels left out and doesn't know how to handle it. She was a little upset that I haven't called or been around, however, I did what I had to do so I could feel good about me. I'm always going to be her friend, she just needed some tough love. 

Barb and I got breakfast after the club and I didn't get home until around four and didn't fall asleep until around six . I tossed and turned only getting about two hours sleep for the entire night.  So all in all it was a pretty good night. I handled going out without Master or Mistress and was a very good girl. I wouldn't have been anything less. I am a reflection of them, therefore, if I would've misbehaved not only would it make me look bad, but it would have made them as well . It's hard being away from those two for more than a few hours. I started missing them as soon as they left. What I have found in the two of them is the part of me that has been missing and i'm hoping they feel the same. It's not easy serving two people, however, I wouldn't want it any other way nor would I want to serve anyone else in that manner the way I do them. What we have is unique and special. I know that every relationship is in their own way , and I don't think what we have is any better than the next person however, I haven't been this happy, this content, or this fulfilled in a very very long time. Usually i'm  sick of being around the same person for so long by now. Not with my MamaKat or my Sir Wolffie.  I still can't get enough of either one of them. Maybe it's because we all fit, we balance one another out. I'm not going to question what is, i'm just going to enjoy it and live in the moment.  I don't know if it's meant to last a lifetime,what I do know is that it's meant to be right now and in the end the friendship we have, the love we all have for one another will last a lifetime. 
 

submina

Thoughts, feelings, and emotions

I have been serving Kat(MamaKat) and James(Master Wolf) for a little over a month and half now and I couldn't be happier.  I really wasn't looking to become anybody's domestic submissive. After all the ups and downs that I have had with relationships, I honestly didn't think it was possible and I damn sure didn't think I would ever sub to another female. We all three have known each other for roughly about 6 months. I know that I loved seeing both of them at munches and at the club being able to chit chat a bit. Master Wolf(James) and I talked more than Kat and I in the beginning, however, he always said that Kat and I need to spend time together and talk  because he thought that she and I would get along great.  Let me tell You , this man definitely knows what he is talking about because when Kat and I finally did get to hang out and spend time together, we clicked instantly, just like James and I did and I have pretty much been serving them ever since. Master Wolf is the total package(don't let this statement go to Your head when You read this Master, lol) , kind, sensitive, caring and soft spoken at times. Do not let all of these things fool you, He is an extremely dominating individual that knows his stuff. I am a very out spoken person myself and stubborn at times. I need a very confident Dominant that's not overbearing, well, Master James is exactly that.  Now MamaKat, with her knock out looks, beautiful soul, and just down right addicting personality goes perfect with Master James.  She won me over within seconds  just as James did. 



The first weekend the three of us spent together was a little crazy, wild, and a whole lot of fun. I knew then that I wanted to serve them.  The thing is i've never been that great with communication, not that I couldn't communicate but had a hard time opening up in my past relationships. The significant other didn't want to hear what I had to say, my thoughts and opinions didn't matter. Total opposite with MamaKat and Master Wolf. For the first time ever, I finally am with a Dominant couple that wants to hear my opinion, my thoughts, my concerns. This is what I wanted before but I didn't think it was out there, I now know different. I can't predict the future and I don't know if this is meant to last forever, however, I will say right now, I am right where I am suppose to be as their girl.

I serve both Kat and James with honor and a whole lot of mina love. For me serving them fulfills me. Knowing I am making a difference, helping, and pleasing them both puts me in a very, very happy place. It's not sexual for me, although I am attracted to both of them, physically, mentally, and emotionally there are rules and guidelines that are to be followed and respected and I take pride in following these knowing that I would not ever over step my boundaries.  I do get playtime with them both and every so often I get special attention from my Mistress and Master.  No matter what I cherish whatever time they give me. It's funny though, I know many girls that would think me nuts because of my situation. A lot of people just want the kink and sex. Well that's not what I am about. Mistress Kat and Master James bring out the deep submissive in me , the side of me that I didn't know still existed.  They make me proud of who I am and are helping me blossom and grow even more. It's hard to explain my feelings because I love them both unconditionally , and when I am away from them it drives  me nuts because I crave to be near them , it's like an addiction that I need to feed. I'm not obsessed, even though it may sound like I am, lol.

This blog is for me to express all these feeling and emotions. I'm not use to being this happy, however, I am enjoying it. For the first time since I don't know when, I do feel loved, wanted,and needed. What more could a girl ask for? This is just the beginning of a brand new chapter in all three of our lives.  I know things aren't always going to be how they are now. I'm bound to make mistakes, people fight, we get stressed, moody and sometimes unpredictable. The way I see it is, that this is a part of life and nothing worth having comes easy, you have to fight for what you want, work through the tough times together, and most of all, have faith.


MamaKat was right when she said to me, "Mina, you picked us out before we even ever thought of considering you". I don't know what pulled me in to the both of them however, the invisible leash is still pulling hard and going strong because each and every day that I spend with Kat and James, my need to serve them grows stronger.  The bond that we are forming won't ever be broken, no matter what the future has in store for us I will always be their minacakes their girl :)


I know James and Kat like to scene with other people and I do enjoy watching them at work, talk about HOT HOT HOT!!! I'm not one that needs constant attention 27/7, being able to stand on my own is one of the things I do believe Master and Mistress love about me.  I have no need to be jealous of other play partners, I am confident in my position and I get to go home with them, lol. Now who else can say that??  With that being said, I am very honored to be under consideration of Mistress Kat and Master  Wolf, two of the most amazing people that you will ever meet. My submission to them is not forced, I openly and willingly submit to them without doubt or fear, given I still have many things to learn, with their guidance and knowledge I do believe our world will only get better :)




submina