I'm a bit annoyed and confused today. I feel people have honestly forgotten what the meaning of friendship is. Lately some of the people that I call my friends only seem to want me to come around to help them do something to benefit them. It's not that I don't mind helping people but when it's all they call you for it tends to get old. Whatever happened to "Hey ya want to just hang out?" Maybe it's just me and i'm seeing things that aren't there, however, my gut tells me different.
I was told that I would change for the better and see things clearer than I had before and I am. Since being here with MamaKat and Master James I have changed. I'm a happier person and i've dealt with so many things buried inside me. Maybe because of all the things in my past I didn't deal with my judgement was blinded. I don't know but now I am starting to see things that weren't there before and I refuse to be around people that always want something from me. I wear my heart on my sleeve and i'll do most anything for a friend or family member but when you only get a call because someone wants you to do something or wants something from you it annoys the hell out of me and i'm done being used by so called family and friends. It's quite simple, I have my responsibilities and priorities in tact. Right now they are dedicated to my kids, My Mistress and my Master. These are the people that appreciate me for me and don't want me around just because i'm a nice person and help out.
I don't want to hurt anybody's feelings, however, it's coming down to that. I'm not a door mat and like I said above, i'm done being used. Friendship to me is priceless, it's not about what I can get out of someone or what they can do for me, it's being there through thick and thin and always having a shoulder lean on when needed. It's about just being around someone because you want to not because you feel obligated. It's about hanging out with someone and not saying a word and still having a great time or doing silly things just because it's fun and you can ........ Whatever happen to people like this?? Do they still exist?? I know they do because I am one of those people. Friendship is like respect, it's earned not freely given. If I call you my friend (and not meaning to sound self centered) it's an honor and if you call me your friend then I am honored.
Ok I'm done with my rant for the day......
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