New assignment basically same topic........My Dad...
I'm suppose to be writing about things in my life with my father that I feel were left unresolved. My relationship with my Dad wasn't perfect, we had our ups and downs. The only thing that I felt was left unresolved is the fact I wasn't there when he passed. I talked about this in a previous post.
I know growing up my father was the bread winner. He always worked therefore he wasn't home much and when he was at home he spent most of his time drinking. Growing up at times in my household was not easy. There were times we had no food, no lights, no water....It was almost like living back in 1800's. We literally had to haul water in 5gallon buckets from the church down the road to our house. We'd cook our food(at times as only canned beans) on a wooden stove. We had the good times as well when all the bills were paid and there was food on the table.
All through grammar school and highschool I played sports. Neither one of parents ever came to a practice or a game. That hurt my feelings more than they knew however, I just dealt with it and continued playing. I don't think they ever came to any school activities until my Graduation. I'm not angry about it. It just wasn't their thing. I know they were both still proud of me.
Back to what I feel was unresolved. I honestly do not know what to say. I've been told that I shouldn't feel bad about not being there but I do. He wanted me to come home and I ignored his request. All he wanted to do was see me before he left....I can't get that out of my head.
