Venting

I'm writing this time to vent and bitch so I can get it all out my system.  My life isn't bad at all, frankly i'm pretty happy go lucky most of the time.  Today on the other hand is not one of those days where I am all peachy and giggly. I'm rather irritated and most of what is causing this irritation is my fault. I have to start remembering to spread my time out a little more and give myself time before making any promises to do something.

I'm in Little Rock for the week and really don't want to be, however, I made a promise to someone that I would come visit again, just didn't realize it would be so soon. I'm not one to break a promise so I honored my word and here I sit. I know everything will be fine and maybe I needed to leave my wonderful Wykd family....My MamaKat and Master Wolf...I don't say that as a negative because I would much rather be back in Bartlett making sure they are taken care of because they both have been sick and now Master Wolf is curled up under blankets miserable, MamaKat is fighting stress and a relapse and  now she has to go home and take care of  Sir when she should be resting next to him.  I know I won't be able to  be there all the time but damnit I want to be.  They both need some TLC.  Even though we weren't on each others nerves I figured a few days apart would do us some good so that we don't take a chance of driving one another nuts. That's the only reason I kept my promise to my Aunt, however, had I known what I know now I would not have left.

With all that being said I am utterly worn out and very very tired.  Everything is bothering me today and I got my feelings hurt because i'm being a moody bitch due to lack of sleep and everything falling apart at once. I literally worked my hiney off spring cleaning for two days so the house would stay clean during my abscence and no one would really have to do much. My kid was an ass on the phone today,  took me forever to actually figure out that I needed to publish my blogs (journal) so that they can be read by MasterWolf and MamaKat which stressed me out, then I was trying to speak with Master on one of the gmail im's because my phone only has like 5 text messages left until the 1st and he got sick and asked me not to message him there because it was too noisey which irritated me even more because I can't send any text to check on him and I don't want to call and chance waking him up if he's resting. It's like i'm cursed, someone put a spell on me.  None of this is anyone's fault, it just has me down today and a little depressed.  A good nights sleep will do me justice and i'll be in a much better mood tomorrow.


I know i'm suppose to write in my journal when I first met James and Kat plus all the things in between now and then. I will and and i'll make sure that the correct time span corresponds with my journal. Right now i'm just writing down the present getting a few things off my chest, that's what a journal is for plus it is a way of communication between Master, Mistress and myself. It also will help them get to know me better in so many ways. 




Now that I vented and got it out of my system and I have a tasty chocolate homemade milk shake in my hand, I am feeling better.  Here in about an hour and a half i'm going to start listening to the book that Master so kindly downloaded for me surprising the dickens out of me and MamaKat loaned me her laptop so I could start this journal and listen the book. I swear, I have the most wonderful Master and Mistress , so kind and loving......I truly have been blessed........

submina....